The best songs come from experience.

The best songs come from experience.

So, I’ve decided to get more serious about music.

I started writing songs last week and I have about 50+ ideas started. Obviously, very rough drafts, ideas. They are more like blog posts, journal entries, stories right now than songs. Fleshing them out will come in time with tweaking and what not. I actually find it easy to come up with ideas for songs, but having a page of lyrics is in my opinion the easy part. I need to learn how to write music, which will help determine the shape the lyrics take on the page.

Unfortunately, I suck at that right now ; )


All in my mind?

April 19, 2009

Something weird is going on with me.

Sometimes I almost start to panic because I go to swallow (water, etc, whatever) and it’s like I get stuck in the middle of it. I can’t complete the act of swallowing. But there is nothing wrong with me that I know of and if I sit and concentrate on swallowing and making the throat muscles move it’s all fine.

Isn’t that weird? It’s been happening to me once in awhile but today it’s been bad. It’s mental I think, but it also feels like I have cotton mouth, but I haven’t smoked pot in like four or five years so it can’t be that, ha ha. It also happens when I’m half asleep, I jump up, sit up and gasp for air because I feel like I’m not breathing. Then my adrenaline kicks in and my pulse races and I have to calm myself down because I’m all amped up from taking deep breathes.

I don’t know, it’s gotten worse the last few years. I used to just have regular insomnia now I have all this weird stuff goin down.

Okay, decided I don’t feel like making another post tonight so I decided to post a song instead. I absolutely love this song. And like the song, I too wish I was myself again.

And yes, I’m pretty sure I have a “man-crush” on Brandon Flowers… but don’t worry ladies, I still love you lol 😉 Enjoy the song and take care.

To return and update

April 9, 2009

Well it’s been a little over two months since I posted on here. I kind of got out of the habit of making posts and repeatedly forgot until not posting was the habit. I will try to post regularly if possible. So, a short update then I will make a more significant post later.

Well, still can’t find a steady job. Bill collectors and debt swirling around me like vultures or maybe those little demons in the movie Ghost ha ha. They are coming to take me away now!!!!! Well I at least saved enough money to get my guitar back out of pawn, got to have priorities right?

My largest tarantula died, that sucked. Well I still have three others and they are growing nicely. My favorite is probably the Antilles Pink Toe, absolutely beautiful creature. It is about two inches or so in size.

A couple months ago I got a ball python. It was a gift or “adoption” from my cousin. He also has grown since I’ve had him and he is a really cool and docile snake. Cute little bastard too… as far as snakes go I guess. He however hates my little cousins (4 and 7). He curls into a ball and hides from them… probably because they are loud and jumpy… which snakes do not like. Thawing frozen mice for him to eat is always interesting… pretty fascinating to watch them stretch their heads apart so they can swallow food that is much bigger than their mouth. My favorite part is when near the end when only the tail is sticking out of the snakes mouth and they rise up into the air so gravity will aid them in pushing the food down their throat. Cool stuff.

Personal life is truly lame right now, nothing I care to comment on at this time.

Until later… have a good one.